I think I am finaly learning to stay

I have to stay...that is something I have never done before. Staying is a commitment. Its hard. Why is it so hard? Like moving, why do we feel the need to move? Why don't we stay? or What about relationships? Why do we give up so easily? Why do we call it quits? I mean is it cuz there really are differences or we just think that all relationships are perfect and there is no such thing as fights?

I need to stay...I need to commit myself to something. Possibly something important. Sometimes i feel so lost. Sometimes I feel like I don't understand why I think the way I do. I might be ruining my own life, cuz I think that is the only way to go.

I am too complicated for myself.

Some China buffet

Today was a lazy day at work. I have to admit that I spend a lil time on this thing to get it going. I think the best part of my day was my nap after work. it was a good fantastic hr.

I went to see Lara, Melissa, and Ryder. We went to this China Buffet on Baseline and Power. Its prob the best Buffet I ever been to. Its quite decent. They have pretty good sushi too. It was funny that when we left I have realized that the people that were there were the same people that i saw when I came in.

Oh and I saw John Tucker must die tonight....its a funny movie. I like it.

A Day with Lara and baby Ryder

After a hard day at work I got to go hang out with Lara and baby. It was a great day! Lara helped me a lot trying to set up this blog thing. It is really hard! I would say this is def harder then myspace. (I don't have a myspace)

Ryder is getting so big now and he is the cutest lil bundle of love. He loves auntie Sunny cuz he puked all over me. I think that is his way of claiming what is his. its like "Oh oops I puked milk all over her, MINE, MINE, MINE, ....."

We also attempted at tuning Lara's dad's old guitar. It was really fun cuz the whole time I am trying not to break the old strings on that guitar. Suppositively it has not been played for 5 years. It was fun. My tuning skills are not nearly as good as daddy Poulsen's. He played us songs and we danced. Oh Ryder danced too, in fact he fell asleep to grandpa Poulsen's mesmorizing music!

Mommy Poulsen made dinner. Left overs are the best. I am a big fan. We had garlic bread, lasagna, spaghetti, spinach, broccoli, squash, rib meat, corn, and a delicious strawberry pie desert.